Love 

This is a written expression of the quiet reflections i've had for the longest time.


"What is love?"
"How do you know if a man is from God?"
"What makes one so sure?" 
"How do you know if he's the right one?"
"Everyone's getting married these days..." 


I've heard a lot about this over the years, and in recent months there have been more discussions over relationships, love and marriage. Lots of people are getting engaged, married, in these 2 years. And the numerical significance of my age has never quite struck me till I receive wedding invitations one after the other, and I think to myself-no wonder, it's the age to get married afterall, and i am -gosh- 25 years of age. 


And yet i will my heart to be still. It takes courage, to guard one's heart. It takes courage to stand by what God has to say in relationships and marriage, and it takes faith to choose to continue to trust in God, and not bend towards what the secular world has to say. 


"What? Never been attached? How do you do that?"
"I've got a friend who should hit off well with you"
"You've got to expand your social circle a little bit more you know, get to know people"
"No one's ever going to meet your kind of expectations!"


Stop. Because I want to, and I need to listen to what God has to say. The more I seek Him, the more I learn and understand what His purpose is in marriage. And I tremble, it brings both comfort and fear in my heart. Comfort, because I understand the beautiful purpose and richness that God has planned for in marriage, in accordance with what He has designed. Fear, because the more He reveals, the more certain I am of the kind of man I am looking for, and yet... 


"What is love?" It is self-sacrificial, just like how Christ loved us. 


"How do you know if a man is from God?" If God's desire is for us to desire more of Him, and to grow deeper in our relationship with Him... I cannot imagine how a loving Father will grant a man that will hinder our pursuit with Him. If anything, he should spur our desire to love Him more. 


I know that God has placed certain burdens in my heart, and I quietly ponder upon them from time to time. I believe that if He were to provide, He will bless me with someone who shares the same passions, the same burdens, to serve Him. 


So I tremble. 


But I know that the God who loves me, is one who is faithful. He is one who listens. 


But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33