Journey

I can't believe it! I'm flying off on Sat morn to Penang, and won't officially be back till after 8 weeks! Ok, because unofficially i'll be bk on the 22nd Aug for one week, haha. This is the first time i'll be away from home for so long, I feel like I miss my mum already. I can't really describe proper what I'm feeling right now, it feels like a mix of excitement (i am counting on this. kids,food, play, community based rehab), anxiety & dread (like oh shucks i'm not really prepared to see the kids. I've not read up enough, i feel like a walking dodo. What if i screw up?), apprehension (a teeny inkling of the place there) and...i dunno. It's hard to put a finger on it, you know what I mean?

I've started to pack tonight, and was initially kinda freaked out at the amt of space my clothes took! Like the polo shirts, pants, black shoes, going-out tops yadayada. But haha, I think it's all squeezable. Brought an extra handcarry bag because I am quite sure i'll buy stuffs-like hello, it's their great sale!! heh:)

Everytime I start to feel anxious abt the trip (i can think of a million things tt can go wrong) i am reminded that this special placement is an answered prayer from God. And i'm truly thankful. It's like the first step amongst others that will come, stepping into the big unknown, armed with His comfort and peace, knowing that things will not be easy, but we'll come out fine. I feel like Moses, in a lot of ways, not adequate, just not good enough.

But it was a timely reminder during QT that God doesn't wait for us to be perfect to use us, to involve us in His plans.

So i pray, that He will use me mightily in small ways, to learn with humility, to serve others with love. For our weaknesses and strengths to complement each other, and be patient with each other too. Not forgetting that we're not going there just for ourselves, but for the children there:)

I hope our team will rock! haha.

oh! And something else. I made Cilantro Pesto Angel hair spaghetti for me and my mum's lunch today. It's my first time doing spag other than the usual tomato-based one. Mum's tomato-based sauce rocks my socks man!

Here's my Cilantro Pesto Angel Hair spaghetti:

It tastes quite refreshing, but i'm having doubts with the cilantro. I think i can go easy on it, but mum wished there were more! Individual tastes yea? Oh cilantro is aka chinese parsley here. I made my cilantro pesto by blending cilantro, and adding garlic, salt, pepper and olive oil. Then added pork, tomato and button mushrooms. Oishi!

As I say, the love of cooking, stems from the love of eating. Heheh. Tt reminds me, gd food in Penang! whoooooo!

And also my dear frens who are having attachment now, JIA YOU!!! muack!