These weeks

Have not been easy, they were and are trying. I see difficult and stressful times ahead. These weeks, tears have been shed, albeit smiles still break through because I still see a reason to smile. I have been learning quite some lessons from God and I thank Him for that. For every unkind word or comment, God is teaching me how to love. For every trying circumstance, God is teaching me how to stand still and be strong. For every stumbling block in my path, I pray that I do not ask God to remove it, but rather give me the strength to stand and continue the race. I do not wonder (at least I try not to) whether I am apt for this course, whether I can make it-not to be swept by the currents but overcoming them, swimming right in the opposing direction. I do not doubt whether this course is for me, because there has been more than enough reassurances that it is. I thank God for the many loving people that He has placed around me, saying the right words at the right time tt spurs me on. Thank Him for encouraging lecs as well!

Recently I have started reading a book, articles about the lives of others in other countries. It puts me to shame-me complaining abt the nitty gritties of life-of studies, of this, of that. I am also inspired by the hardened lives of these people, who have gone through life at its very worst, struggling even to survive in this inhumane society. I don't wake up every morning wondering whether I would go hungry for another day, whether if I would freeze to death, sniffing glue or being a junkie just cos my hunger pangs would go away and rid me of all my problems momentarily, having a gun pointed to my forehead, not daring to sleep at night for fear of being shot at. And they still have a reason to smile=)

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:31-34 NIV