I muse

Can't believe i'm online! Goodness,and fri alr! Haha..feel kinda stressed but otherwise i feel surprisingly ok=) i guess this study break i learnt a lotta stuff..abt pple around me and myself too..i really want to..just let go.I realise tt i need God's help more than ever,especially for this too..Sometimes i feel tt i have too many emotional baggages..everyone does rit! And it just weighs you down,you feel like your dragging your 2 feet around..it's like you put trust and frenship in pple,but you just end up questioning why and feeling disappointed.I hope i won't close up or clam up on others because it wouldn't be fair to them too rit? And it's not just 1 person,it might be more than tt you feel disappointed with..and time does heal,to a certain extent.And i realise tt i forgive a lot more easier now,harder to stay angry at anyone for long.. forgiving doesn't mean forgetting but it helps you to get thru a lot easier.And u wonder why some pple take your forgiveness so much for granted,and they just keep disappointing you more and more.And although you're still friendly with the person and maybe still gd frens,there'll always be this invisible wall you built btw u and tt person...and does tt count as forgiving? I think i used to bear grudges for a pretty long time when i was young,but not anymore=) and sometimes i think,what's the pt of being angry? ur stay on earth is pretty short and life is too short to hold anything against anyone at all..maybe it was msX and her condition tt made me do so much pondering..and well life is too short to have goals like-be popular,be rich,be famous.

Afterall the best rewards are not gained here=)