rainbows

Rainbows

Feel really gd today,had a long chat with ying on the phone and we talked about a lotta stuff=) err.Till mum complained. Before that in sch, i felt kinda weird today.Just v tired and drained,stressed and irritated.Didn't really wanna talk much today,having sore throat too.Sat with fcs today and it was a really nice conversation that we had,though i didn't talk much.Somehow,the canteen just seemed to float off to somewhere else.It was tt kinda deep pondering talk that left me wondering abt stuff on my way home.Oh well,i wonder about stuff all the time.I could only rem some stuff,felt whoozy today=)

abt learning to let go of frens.i guess it's true,what c said.It'll make me sad and angry if i put in a lotta effort into a fren,and well..you don't get the same treatment.Or tt they just feel happier w others.And sth about trust.I think i trust pple quite easily.As in once i really regard you as a super gd fren,i wouldn't hesitate to pour out stuff to you.In tt sense i trust quite a lot,but it takes me quite a long time to "see" a fren.Like a few years? Hahaha frens are vv diff from those whom you share you're troubles and secrets with..and i think all my diff frens bring out diff sides of me.It isn't cos you're a hypocrite,it's just tt there are many sides to a person and you can see yourself in a diff light as well.Ying said tt we'll show our temper and "face" when we're young when we're angry and now it isn't the case anymore.. even if you're angry with a person,you just bury it and try to smile and smoke your way thRU.It's true,but i don't like it.Sometimes hiding is harder than showing.And to my closest frens,I'd just pick up the phone and tell them i'm sad or dis with them.It always works out.I think it's harder to make frens as you grow older,what with hypocrites and meanies around.Sometimes i feel sad about the frens tt i could have gotten closer,had we tried harder.And i find myself wishing tt i could be closer to some others too.Really.Actually i think there are some more pple tt i can talk to around me.Hmmm.We'll see=) i ponder quite a lot about life in general,and there's only a few who share the same sentiments as me..

Mai mailed me! so happy! can't wait to see them in nov.cute lil buncha kids.Felt really touched by what Plant said last night too..ah.Thanks! Oh yea..and must talk about TUES!!! Missed Biz a lot! Had a good time catching up and joking arnd with therie,wes,ade they all.SIGH.So fun! can't wait for the bloody As to end! haha.