happy bdae?

Happy bdae?

Hmm..guess this yr i felt a bit weird..dunno if it's pms kicking in or what.Unlike all the previous years..i felt..unexcited about about my bdae.Wasn't excited at all the day before.Was kinda ok in school.The happiest point of time yesterday was when i saw the video tt jo,scrawn and eddie made for me! oh man! thanks a million guys! The video v nice and touching..farnie also=) They even planned it before the March hols! Haha=) hmmm..what did i get? a lotta nice stuff! a cake (and the class--to my horror sang the zoo version of the bdae song to me!), strawberry shower gel,wildflower body lotion,a cool clip bookmark,a jar of marks and spencers choc marshmallows ( and she goes yum yum!), a star necklace,a flower charm bracelet,a vv nice card hand-painted by scrawn of my fav pic she has! Didn't get anything from my frens in vj though--cos i bought it for myself! haha..asked them to share la..my started this real useful trend! the gd thing is you get what you want..but the downside is tt the element of surprise is gone! boo.. hmm=) and glad tt a lotta pple remembered my bdae..hee=)=) But a bit sad tt Kit nvr mention me in her blog post! Gal ah! Y you liddat?! *sobs.. oh and plant slept at 10.45..so she lost!

and today's one of the most horrible days of my life! everything went wrong and horrible.And it's just one day after my bdae!!! sigh.Just super duper disappointed in my spa.. pray tt i did well for the previous 2...

I just feel so spaced out these days and upset and unhappy..though it doesn't really make sense why i feel this way.Wanna kick myself outta this nightmare..perhaps it's school life.Perhaps it's class life.Perhaps it's work.Perhaps it's frens.Perhaps perhaps perhaps.Can't really pinpoint it to sth.But i'm just affected by everything arnd me.