Thinking...too much!

hey actually i'm getting kinda confused abt my life.Shld i pursue this frenship? But i'm scared tt i'll be caught up in a lotta stuff...Shld i base my judgement on what my frens tell me? or shld i just be nice and just be myself.Actually i don't mind..don't see the reason to escape.But i'm vv scared of unequal frenships.Like for eg..the fren will demand a lot from you...you know? and if one day argue rit..i'll be vv sad one..think i'm a v emotionally attached person..hmm.. so what the heck shld i do?!! pls God..gimme some directions..Amen.
suddenly i realise tt the older we get..the more confusing life is.Sigh.And they say tt sch life is innocent.I wonder abt the adult world.Dun wanna grow up!