Buckets of tears

Buckets of tears
 
Can't believe tt i'm such a mess.I have such a messed up life.Not really...but in terms of results..yes.Sighh..I just can't accept the sudden drop in results.not tt i'm smart..but i'm kinda used to getting quite good results..from i dunno..till sec4 i guess.And now i'm failing like nobody's business! Not tt i didn't stuy hard.. i did.I always do.Makes me wonder if my best is enough.But maybe i've only got myself to blame.for not doing tutorials and listening in lec and class for the half yr.Ok.My fault.And to top my guilt..my parents are really nice and understanding. I think i'm really blessed to have them.Yea..they keep encouraging me.It makes me feel so rotten inside.I bawled in class just now.What's wrong with me? But for those who know me..i'm not one who has total control of my emotions.What i'm feeling shows on my face.It's better than last time.I'd cry even harder two years bk.I can't turn back time rit? Maybe it's God's way of telling me to wake up and get going...not to slack anymore.yea i won't.Hope not anyway.Better late than never! I thought retaining was a hard thing..but it's close to becoming reality.If i'm not careful.Don't worry too much abt me..i know when it's time to stop crying.I just need some time to be myself again.Sigh...